11 months......

i hate holidays, used to love christmas and new year, no decorations this year, no presents, no shopping for those cute little things to make you smile and hear 'i love you so much baby...'

Al, my brother and your best friend, will be here on january 2, I am so glad he is coming, dont know what i would do without him and Tanya and Becks....

oh, boy, I miss you so much, I miss you so much baby, why did you have to go, why did you have to leave me, why i am still here.... i love you, i love you with all my heart, always....

how to ...

your birthday is coming up, holidays are just around the corner, how to breath,
how to keep moving, how to live through.... I miss you, baby

I would...

I would give up anything and anyone for your smile, only to hear one more time ....

'.... I love you, baby'

8 months

every months on the 2d I wake up before sunrise, in tears, I miss you my love, I wish I did not have to take this journey without you, no one can tell I am heart broken, no one knows how much I miss you, I love you ... always...

7 months

can not believe it has been 7 months, or was it? time is irrelevant, you are there, I know, you are there... love you baby, always....

world

baby, you were my world and now i have to learn to live without you, i learn to meet people, talk to them, i learn to open myself for new experiences, its so damn hard, i wish i would never have to do this, i wish our small world, where i felt safe and always protected, would still exist...

I dont know the rules of this new world, for so long i did not have too, you were there shielding me from everything ... I am scared terrified and confused, but I am trying, I know you would want me to, you would tell me to open up, breeze and live, not to wait for the storm to pass, but to enjoy dancing in the rain.....

miss you, always

always...

разбитые мечты, погас очаг,
и только одинокая свеча горит,
и бьется пламя на ветру,
в штормы и бури, зимние морозы,
свеча горит,
и долгий путь домой мне освещает ...
так и горит твоя любовь,
сквозь время, ночи, бури и пространство,
ведет, оберегает и хранит...

I love you, baby, always....

today is our wedding anniversary, happy anniversary, my love...